im glad i still have this.
where all my hearts and thoughts are all well kept.

it's not that i dont trust my own blog.
who the hell reads this blog anw.
but just that,
this book,
records everything of what i am really thinking.
all the confused moments in my life.


and how did i even get this book in the first place?
well,
long story.
well, at least i didnt regret getting this book.
at last there is some proper use to it.
apart from writing people's names in it.
which is in the first few pages (-.-)



anw, had a awesome HTHT with the most unexpected people.
maybe just one of the person inside.
but yeah, that talk was like a slap in my face.
the slap of reality.
people know more stuff than i thought i knew.
and if you piece all those up,
it really doesnt (?) make sense.
everyone of them have their views.
but somehow their views are what i really wanted to tell everyone.


amazingly, those people are not my regular bros.
who knew my bros are not the people that i tell all my thoughts to.

maybe, just maybe, i am really finding excuse for myself.
if i dont take the leap of faith,
how would i know it wont work out?


but this leap of faith just seems too big to handle.
till the day i really do that,
i wont know what i missed out in my life.



goddamnit.
sleep time.