a crush on someone.
whom i never even talk to in person.
i totally dono why.

you lift my feet off the ground you spin me around
you make me crazier crazier
feels like i'm falling
and i, i'm lost in your eyes
you make me crazier crazier crazier.

i cant tell anyone bout this.
they wont believe it either.
no 1 will believe it.
i cant believe it either.

cant i just see her for one more time?
i just want to talk to her for this once.
its like never gonna happen.

come to think of it,
wont it be weird ?
that classmates for so long den i got this feeling.
rly.
i feel weird myself.
lol

that course is here again.
this time round i really want to go.
but looking at that criteria,
how can i rly make it.??

where to even take napha?
can i get my gold??
can my swimming be fast enough???!!!
and test date is 2 wks from NOW !!
z.z


start training
start training.
dont care whether sch term clash.
i must at least pass the selection.
i want to make it.
for once.

been long eh.
yea just realised this place is where i rly keep my secrets.

i saw this person today.
which i have not seen for dono how long.
and all i can say is.
i really wanted to have a chat.
but it feels weird ah.
her world and mine is so much different.
and yea i did seriously had a crush on her.
but i just have no idea y.
i just dowan to go forth and just start to at least chat with her.


feel hopeless of myself?
perhaps.
lol and no one ever knows bout this.
mayb its just something thats stuck in my head so long.
i dont even realise its there.
i just think her world and my world is different.


mayb is i just dowan to spend my effort to go for her.
or i just dowan to face the reality.
mayb.
perhaps.
and no 1 will ever believed i liked her before.
LOL
no 1 really will.


will i ever have a chance to chat with her alone?
will i ?
i dont think so.
but wadever.
till that time comes,
i will continue and lead my own life.
life's an experience =)