yes just stop reminding me.

because some people just wont understand.

to keep reminding and keep reminding.

there will always be this limit.

to everything.

doesnt mean i am smiling n laughing everyday.

means im ok.

i am not ok.

i am really not ok.

but who can i blame.

it's my own choice.

ah fuck.

nonsense yet again.

there is this emptiness within me.
and i know what it is.
but yet, i aint doing anything bout it.
so what the fuck am i trying to do.
and yes, im finding excuse for it.
that's really not helping at all.


and i just dont feel right.
no one knows, and that sucks.
goddamnit.